I’ve always tried to be a stronger person for myself and for others. People close to me have much more harder problems than I do, so instead of wallowing in my own frustration, I’d rather help them out but lately, I can feel myself cracking. I don’t have the patience for anything or anyone anymore. I get so irritated at the smallest of things, and it gets to the point where I just want to break something. Most of the time, I can shake it off or control myself but day by day, the anger just gets too much for me.
I start lashing out. It doesn’t matter who they are or what their intentions are. When they catch me at the wrong time, they’re my victim for the moment. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, usually, I hate being negative but I can’t help it. My foundation is breaking.
Life gets hard to deal with when my home isn’t even a home anymore. I can’t deal with anything else when the one place you’re supposed to feel safe in turns into something that you can’t stand to be in anymore.
Don’t start something with me online, especially if I haven’t spoken to you in forever. Was your name even mentioned in the conversation, NO. Did I imply that Her not being there was your fault, NO. Geeze, get your head out of your ass.
Go ahead, and say what you want, I will say my piece, as well. But if you’re going to keep coming and coming, sooner or later, I’ll get tired of your shit and just suck it up. I’ve said all I wanted to say and I don’t know about you but I could live without having other people see what the silly argument is even about. I haven’t said anything to you or about you, nor have I butted into you guys business.. so you have no reason to even be on my dick right now. Also, don’t talk about my relationship when yours is obviously shit.
What’s the point of even adding me on a social site if you’re going to delete my posts or comments? I don’t accept complete strangers, just people that I’ve known but never really spoke to or a friend of a friend that I’ve met before, or someone that looks really familiar to me like we’ve already met or my classmates. The other day, some girl adds me and I’m pretty sure I’ve seen her around, I’m not sure where or which school she attended. So I ask her, have we met before, blah blah, you look really familiar and that was days ago. I went back to her wall this morning and noticed that it wasn’t even there anymore. She deleted it, -.-’ It was a simple question, geeze.
I don’t know, it’s silly to get worked up over it but at the same time, if you have no intention of talking to me, then what’s the point of even having you on my list? GOSH.
I dislike spoiled little children. I hate that parents and whoever bend down to their every demand just to make them stop crying. I hate how they grow to be disrespectful, and expect and expect and expect. My sisters kids are just UGH, I want to knock some sense into them. It’s to the point where they don’t even listen to their parents, my parents or me. I have to bribe them with snacks and whatever just for them to clean up their mess or to behave. It doesn’t matter if you speak to them nicely, raise your voice, or spank them, they end up turning their heads, anyway. @)*&$^)!*&^#
If I could, I’d whoop ‘em good but.. I know I don’t have it in me to do that. The best revenge I can think of is to give them a hard time when they get older, especially their teenage years. Yes, that is a time
The Jersey Shore may be a ridiculous show but I love the closeness that each member has with their family. It makes me super, duper jealous because I can’t talk to my parents or siblings about anything personal.
“Man, I was thinking about unrequited love. I figure it’s best to just walk that shit off. Find someone else to be excited about. It’s like if you love ice cream but your ice cream man friend won’t give you any. Maybe he’s got a good reason. It cuts into profits. Who knows? But he likes you as a friend and wants to hang out anyway. It just drives you crazy to hang out with that dude, even if he’s being reasonable from his point of view. So don’t hang out with him. What, you ONLY like ice cream? It’s ice cream or nothing? Don’t be an asshole. Learn to love donuts.”—Joey (via flairey)
Waiting for someone is probably the most frustrating thing ever. Just not knowing if they feel the same way about you, or want the same thing takes it’s toll. No matter how much someone is worth waiting for, it hurts way more than breaking your arm. With each passing day, you start to doubt that things will ever happen. You lose hope. Like waiting for a train that might never come, sitting there for what seems like ever. You can’t really help but over think things. There’s only so much that a person can take before they break.
I hate ‘em. Whether I need to pee, poop, or vomit, etc. I hate ‘em. This is embarrassing but holy shit, I was getting mad! Before we left the mall, I went to go and change my pad. There was a line, so I rushed and all that. I flushed the toilet and it didn’t even get all the tissue or dirty water out, =_=’ I didn’t want someone to walk into the stall right after I walked out and see my mess! SO.. it took a while for me to get out, ……. >_>
My toilet at home, like, floods to the top and then swirls down, taking all the mess and tissue off the sides and whatnot. With toilets at the mall, water just flows down the left/back/right side, it doesn’t reach the top. And it kind of slants inside the toilet to make your pee or poop slide down, I guess, I dunno.
ANYWAYS, I flushed and flushed and flushed, and it still didn’t work so I had to cover the tip of my shoe with toilet paper and scrape the leftover tissue off the front side. It got to the point where I even yelled because I was so frustrated and disgusted that it had to come to that, -______-’ I cleaned up the toilet as best as I could, unfortunately, it wasn’t spotless, if you get what I mean, >_>
Today was pretty chill. It was Shark Day at the mall where Simon A. Sanchez High School gets to show off. After all the performances, we went to buy snacks for the rugby game. We ended up not going, last minute change, SIGH. Overall, today was swell. I got to hang with Kishi, she’s way too cute, haha.
Honestly, I missed it so much. I cried so hard when I got redistricted to the new school. Showing up today definitely brought back memories. I remember singing in the choir, my boyfriend (at the time) was sitting in the front row, cheering me on. How we all spent money on food, coffee beanery and the Dance Dance Revolution game. It made me think about my old life, how easy it was. To be honest, Sanchez was the shit. It was at the top of the list of high schools. Talented people, brainiacs, school spirit and very attractive people. DAMN. I’m sad that I didn’t get to graduate there like my sisters but I don’t regret moving schools. I met new people, found new love and better friendships with people who have been there all along. I always think ‘What if’ but in the end, I’m glad with where I ended up.